La Muerte Dorada is a space for feeling. There is no storyline to guide you; there is an emotion that holds you, allows you to question, to inquire, to surrender to the depth of your feeling.
La Muerte Dorada was born from a deep, personal need. A need to create a world where I could meet myself without filters. Where I didn’t have to explain or justify anything—just feel, just be. It was a way to give shape to my pain, to let it speak without trying to make it beautiful or easy.
At its core, this piece honors a part of me that’s wild, vulnerable, and completely exposed. It’s the voice of a girl inside me—curious, bold, full of questions and truths. A girl who finally felt safe enough to say what she had to say. This space allowed me to reclaim what was mine and let go of the dreams I had inherited, but never really chosen.
The name La Muerte Dorada is a blind surrender to a deep transformation. It represents an internal metamorphosis, where my body went through a symbolic death in order to be reborn closer to my purpose. The idea of “dorado” comes from recognizing something precious that emerges from a process of purification. It’s as if something essential or fundamental has been deeply transmuted, allowing the deconstruction of what once was the beginning, so that it can emerge with a new way of being. This name also carries a profound spiritual connection, since gold is often associated with the divine, the eternal, and the sacred. For that reason, La Muerte Dorada can also mean a journey toward awakening, not just for the individual but for the collective—a process where everything that once held you is sacrificed to allow expansion take place.
Nothing that came out of it was planned, and that made it magical—and perfectly confusing. We found a thread the night before filming. The place guided us all. We surrendered to the earth. The sense of emptiness allowed everyone to take part in the performance. It was an amalgam of arts trying to give shape to a sensation that wasn’t even fully formed. I offered it with a thousand voids, a thousand doubts, a thousand interruptions—and still, everyone followed me blindly.
It’s my first creation written, directed, and edited by me. It’s the path into the psychedelia of being alive, the sensation of walking toward the infinite without understanding. It’s a confrontation with death, the realization that not all that glitters is gold. It is Amalia of the past, present, and future—finding balance. It is death under the sun, and beginning under the moon.
I changed the thread so many times that now the video is a psychedelic map of my mind. Thank you to everyone who made this possible. To Jairo, for guiding me and holding the production together. To Gato, for holding my vulnerability, for supporting me and standing strong by my side. To Omar, for being and representing my majestic darkness—for being the man capable of showing me my shadow and standing by me through the process of meeting it. To everyone involved in post-production—thank you for giving life to everything I created. Every element was a precious curation that gave it soul, space, and a name.
I am because we are. My creative team means the world to me—without them, none of this would’ve been possible.
35mm
by jairo martinez
Today, I understand that this video-dance keeps growing inside me. It represents a death I thought I had closed with this project—but in truth, I was just opening a more specific playing field. Many versions of “me” inhabited this creative process
Screening Event 2024
live performance: screening event of *la muerte dorada*
video by juliana castañeda
artists OceanFlows
movement direction in cocreation with daniela de los ríos sound design felipe piedrahita